I've moved over to http://dreadfulwhispers.tumblr.com/ for the time being, till blogger's fixed. Well, if I like it there, I might just run two blogs. I won't delete this though, it holds many memories for me.

Love,
Cara.

39.5 Degrees. Hospital. Blood Test. H1N1 Positive.

My short and sweet post, ha. I'll post up pictures of Chloe's Sweet 17 and my date with E, soon since I've all the time in the world now. Blogger is really f'ed up right now! Damn, fix it please! Gah. I'll go rest now, See ya!

Love,
Cara.

I've never really judge another person just by what I hear from the others, nor do I really bare grudges. I'd rather get to know the person first, than decide whether I should keep him or her as a friend. Like all humans, I too, make mistakes in my choices of friends as well. Some, till today I still regret.

Ever tried putting in your all and your best into a friendship but not receiving as much, receiving a little or perhaps nothing at all in return? I very well know, I did. The feeling is terrible.

Why do people choose to believe in things said by other people, when they themselves have been victims of false rumors which were clearly not true? They themselves know how it feels like to be in the shoes of those who were wronged. Yet some people still choose to spread rumors like the way a rapid forest fire does, the only difference...the rumors ain't true.

I wondered a numerous times before, why did things turn out this way?

Maybe it's because of how I used to be in the past when I was 14 or 15. However, I did make the effort to change and I know some people know and could feel that I've made the changes too. However they just choose to add oil to the fire.

Why make each other's life's so hard? Why not just stick to what's true and be true to yourself as well as others? Instead of doing such childish and immature acts? Is it going to benefit you?

Well, there's so much I want to rant but what I can only vent here is limited. I know I shouldn't be sad, but there's just so much going on. Week after week. I feel like it's draining all my source of energy. Sigh...

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Dear Edmund,

Anyway, B cheer up alright? What's done cannot be undone either, am I right to say that? So here's something for you.

Even if the tides may change, even if the world changes like revolving shadows.
There's one thing you can be sure, that would never change and that's my love for you.
Even if we maybe worlds apart, or even apart some day, my love for you would never change.
You will always be a part of me. I've always loved you, still loving you, and will always continue to love you.
There would always be this place for you in my heart that no one, can ever replace.
No one else but, you.
Without you, life would be just like walking down a boulevard of broken dreams.

I'm not just saying these to make you feel better, I really meant every single word I've mention, from the bottom of my heart. We've been through way more than any other couples would ever have, maybe there's another obstacle which you've to overcome alone, if I ever... Well, whatever it is, I just wanted you to know how much you mean to me. That's all I have to say.

Love,
Cara.

( Twit/ Ahlianzsxz, for you! :) )

Something’s very wrong with blogger, somehow I’m unable to post photos because I can’t even find the freaking button for it. Well, the past two weeks I’ve been pretty sick and almost dying however, that didn’t make me lose a lot of weight, sigh. I was wishing that probably I would be able to lose like, 5kg or something because I totally didn’t have an appetite for food and I couldn’t even eat much. To be honest, the week that I gave school a miss, I ate nothing but porridge. :(

On Friday, I met Fabian and he went to Pasir Ris to collect a copy of Cs’s photocopied Ic from Cs. We took a bus there and nearly died, the bus took so long! From one end to the other. I really dislike Pasir Ris, it brings back great memories that I once, had. Hmm, when we got there and collected the things I needed to collect, we waited at Mac for his friend until 6.50pm, then we decided to leave because I didn’t want to wait anymore! I hate waiting for people. :( We took a cab to Ang Mo Kio Central to meet Charmaine, her boy and their friends. I was too tired and lazy to take a bus back. We met and went to play pool, then headed to Chomp for dinner. It was my second time there, and as usual it was packed. More and more people came, and soon there was probably like, 12 or 14 of us? I kinda lost my appetite when we got there, so I ate Bean curd and it was really nice! Mango Bean curd! Haha! My.phone.had.to.die.on.me! :( I really hate it when my phone dies, because it’s so inconvenient and I’m not used to it because there’s usually something for me to look at whenever I’ve nothing to talk about or, whenever I feel bored, or whenever I missed Edmund and decides to give him a text or something, haha. :) After Mon finishing eating with her friends, she took a cab down to look for me. We slacked outside 7-11 for a very long time than I had to go home and so did Charmaine. Mon sent me and Charmaine home, as she stays 7 floors below me. We decided to slack downstairs for awhile, and we talked till 1am if I remembered correctly.

Yesterday, Edmund and I had a tiff so we didn’t meet. After going to the hospital for my routine checkup, I went for Tuition at United Square at 2pm with Jerri and PeiZhen. It was my first lesson there, and I thought that the teacher was kinda funny although we covered pretty little and talked more to get to know each other as it’s the first lesson. A member from Edmund’s ACS Rugby team happens to be in my class too! Small world eh! I’m not too sure whether I should take Chemistry too, although I’ve Cassie already. Hmm! Tuition ended and Mon came to pick me and we headed to The Minds Café opposite Parklane to meet her friends. It’s a café with a crazy amount of board games, although I think the idea’s great however the place wasn’t really attractive and the food was horrible, I swear! We played Taboo, and this person took this card which said 'Cow' and so she asked her team mates "Where does milk come from?" Then his other guy replied, "BREAST!" Hahaha, I found it super funny and I couldn't get over it! :) Yl booked tickets for the movie ‘Murderer’ online for the show at 6.50pm. Mon and I waited for Yl and Sky to come and then we headed of for the show. I think it’s by far one of the best shows I’ve ever seen. The plot twist was surprising and Aaron Kwok acted really well. I’ll give it a 4/5! :)

We heard that En got into an accident because of her stupid boyfriend, so we headed to Tan Tock Seng Hospital to visit her, however they only allowed 2 visitors, so Mon and I didn’t go up. Well, recover soon babe! :) Come to think of it, I really dislike that Hospital because I was stuck there for 3 hours at the A&E the week before when I got my asthma attack and was running a high fever, and there was no air-con because it was out-door due to the H1N1 shit! But it was the first time I got to sit on a wheel chair! Haha, it was amazingly comfortable. I should have requested for a bed instead! :( Sky and Yl went up to visit her and took quite a long time! Mon waited till she got so tired, and I got so bored and started playing with her phone. All four of us then went to have dinner, but nothing else was open except the Steamboat place along Thomson Road so we decided to eat there. I felt so sick and horrible after eating, I puked although I didn’t eat much. There goes my $16! :( Mon took a cab home with me and continued the ride home after she dropped me off. I got home and I still felt horrible, so I went to sleep straight after I showered.

I’ve got tuition at 10.30am later with Cassie and then Ballet at 3pm. :( Although I’m feeling very tired. I’m supposed to be doing my homework now, but I decided to update my blog. Haha! :) It’s not as if anyone reads it, but still… Hmm. I found a love for doing homework recently and I hope that feeling doesn’t go away because it’s one month to my prelims. :( Alright, I’ll end here because it’s such a long post already!

Death. Something that you would never understand.
Time is ticking, time is running out.

Love,
Cara.

Haha, thanks to Marcus I got my songs up! :) I know they are pretty old, but I like because each of the songs, carries a meaning. Enjoy!

Love,
Cara.

Omg, I just finish typing my post and I accidentally clicked on the back button and whatever I typed is gone when I tried to get back to this page. Darn it! And would someone teach me how to upload full length song on to my blog because apparently Imeem isn't really working now due to the copyright sheeetz.

Um, Hello! I know I haven't been blogging. Yea, I've been pretty busy with school. It's really not easy to catch up with work because, it's 3 years that I'm squeezing into 3 months. Crazy? Hmm, well let's just hope I get shortlisted for the DPA thing so I won't need to mug so hard.

Oh and I took my Oral on Monday. It sucked, and I did really badly. I could read the words -okay, at least most of the words- during the five minutes practice however when I got in front of the examiners I got totally tongue tied. I got so so so nervous! Ahh! ( Pouts )

Hmm, Carol and I decided to cut our hair short and here's the previewwww! :)
( Pardon us for the lian-ness! Haha! )

Haha, okay I got to go prepare for Tuition alreadyyyyyyyyyyy!

P.S, I'm so glad you're right here with me. You don't know how much it matters to me. It's nice to know that you're back.

Love,

Cara,

I'm completely sick and tired right now, sucks. I've no idea what to blog about now, but I'll be going to the doctor's soon, so yea! I'll be going to bathe now. I'll update real soon! Oh and here's a song that I love and I'll try to upload it as my blog song soon, 'Why are we still friends' by 98 Degrees, check it out!

Love,
Cara.

HAPPY 17th

BIRTHDAY TO ME! ♥

A few more hours and my birthday would be over, how sad. Well, I remember as I kid, I always love Birthdays and I've always made it a big deal and brag to everyone that it's my Birthday. Hmm, that kinda spirit kinda died off already, somehow. A Birthday just seems like yet another day although I got to celebrate it over a simple dinner with my Mother and My close friend, Caroline. Happy me!

( I know I've really small eyes
when I don't have my lashes on. )

Well, actually H, Feng, Sandra and Sheryl celebrated with me the day before. We caught a movie at Tampines mall and then H bought a ice-cream cake from Swensens for me. Aw, thanks so much love. Aha, but when we got to the open area we couldn't find a knife and Swensens couldn't provide us with Knifes either, so we actually went to Swensens to cut my cake. The Manager and one of his staff along with H, Feng, Sandra and Sheryl sang a Birthday song for me although it was really sweet but I felt so embarrassed! Ah! Then we headed to Era to meet Jevon and Sarah, and then we went to have Chicken rice with a few other people then I headed home after that. Well, I took a lot of photos with H but I didn't get to take any photos with Sheryl nor Sandra because they left for home early. Thanks for everything love!

( Empty. )

June, the best month of my entire life and it's all because of you guys.

Love,
Cara.

Selene!


Happy Belated Mothers Day Mom! ;)


Love!

Hello Guys! I know I haven't been updating! Sorry! I've been really busy with Mid-Years, Concerts and some other stuff. I'll be busy for another week, so I'll take a mine Hiatus! Aye! I'm sorry! :)

See you next week! I promise I'll update! ♥

For now I'll leave you with this awesome song :)

No Boundaries by Adam Lambert.

-Originally sung by Kara DioGuardi.

Seconds hours so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever if you feel you’ve lost your way
What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
to fight and never walk away

Coz hear I am — still holding on!

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

You’ll make it through the pain (or through all your aches and pains)
Weather the hurricane
To get to that one thing

When you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you’ve almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher
You can go deeper
There are no boundaries
Above and beneath you
B-reak every rule coz there’s nothing between you
and your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breathe its harder to believe

Love,
Cara.

Choi Seung Hyun, Top! :)

"Love is persuasive. Temporary as it so often is, love nonetheless compels otherwise rational creatures to behave in the most extraordinary ways."
-Claudia Gray.

Alright, I've been pretty busy or rather lazy to blog. A mini hiatus actually, due to my Mid Years. I'm just going post a lill about what happened over the week, alright? ;D There would be a lot of photos though! Caution! I didn't really organise them either because there's way too much photos! It's going to be a long long post.

Well, last Saturday Nurul, Teranna, Clarice, Caroline, Siti, Pamela, Chloe and I decided to celebrate Acelyn's 17th Birthday. Well, Clarice planned it. We met at Seoul Garden around 3 for lunch-dinner, we cut the Birthday cake outside Seoul Garden at this flight of stairs. We also headed to Suntec for a movie, while waiting for the horror movie to start, we went to the Arcade to try our luck at the toy Machines. While they were playing, I went over to look for Jun. Aha, we always find something really funny whenever we meet each other, on that day was, the door got stuck and many people got stuck. Well, it doesn't seem funny when I type it out, but it really was! After the Movie, Acelyn, Caroline, Clarice and I decided to head to town to take a walk, then we all headed home. Happy Birthday Acelyn! I hope you had fun, and enjoyed eating the flowers I bought for you! Lols.

Chloe and Acelyn!

On Thursday, E and I met my Mother and her friend at Esplanade for a cocktail event and the Musical CATZ. The show was awesome! I liked the way the dancers performed like cats, the behavior and everything! It was fantastic! The Musical ended at 11 and we all headed home because I had my Mid Year English Paper 1 and 2 the next day! Aha!

$123 ;D



Moon face dork!

The setting!

On Friday, I went to meet Sarah, Sheryl and Jevon at Siglap. We had Lunch at Mac Donald's. Sarah went crazy and she kept laughing at this word 'Stroke' like, non-stop! I left around 8 because I waited for Hubert to come but he decided not to in the end. I met Carol, Timo and his friends at Cathay and we slacked outside Cathay for awhile before deciding what to do because there was a whole lot of us. I think, 12 or more? With such a big group like that there's hardly anything to do around town. But eventually we decided to go to Cyber Dome, however when we got there, there wasn't enough computers for the 12 or more of us, so we sat outside Cyber waiting. It was 11 already, yet we haven't got the computers. Some of us had to leave already, so we left. Carol, Timo and I walked to the bus stop and headed home.

Oh, I didn't take much pictures so I grabbed 2 photos from some one's facebook.

( The above 2 photos are grabbed )

On Saturday, I met E to study at town. We caught a movie too and we bought a whole load of Pop corns and we seriously could not finish it. Aha, My bad! Well, at least I paid more! Then we walked around town and then headed home because I was kinda tired. Well, I really had fun.

So today here I'm at home, rotting away. I'm actually trying to get my History work done however, I can't seem to get myself to concentrate. Ah, and there's so much more homework to be done! Especially Chinese! Damn! Would someone just kill me already? Gah.

Boy, we'll always be stuck in this bubble that we can never get out of,
neither would anyone be able get into it.
That's just how it will be.
Forever. Now and always.

Love,
Cara.

Finally a day out. Tuition tomorrow morning, awesome?